Sigh....

My blog has been pathetic as of late. My apologies. I really need to get on the ball! Reading around I have gathered that the serious bloggers write at least one a day. Actually, it is recommended that you stay at one blog a day, so you don't bore your readers. Not that I am boring anyone. I think I've had around 20 visits or so to my blog thus far. Most visits have been me, and my girlfriend accounts for the other 3. hahahaha!! I crack myself up. It's a good thing I'm a big dreamer, because if I wasn't, then I would probably be crying like a little baby because no one wanted to read what I say. Waaaaaa!!! But, I don't really care if anyone has or not. I'm pretty much writing this for therapeutical reasons. It's really soothing for me to sit down and write my thoughts. I just thought it would be neat to log them and have them organized someplace where someone else or myself could come back and read them. 

I recently acquired a business for my spare time. It's nothing big, and is a start for bigger and better things to come. It's really fun fooling around with advertising and marketing on the web.There is so much to learn! It's a good thing I like challenges. I'll talk about it later. Well all you crazy birds out there, I am going to get ready for bed. Goodnight and as Spock (the pointy eared guy from Star Trek) would say " Live long and prosper."

How many times should you allow yourself to cheat in your diet?

So I went out looking for apartments/houses today, and during my venture I became hungry. I wasn't ready for a lunchtime meal as it was only 10 a.m so I decided the local Conoco would have something to tide me over till my next meal. 

Before I go on, my diet as of late has been slowly getting better. Soda's are pretty much non- existent in my diet as are fried foods. Just making those two changes in themselves has trimmed down my body fat and toned my muscle's a lot more.  Additionally, I have been become more disciplined in eating a good breakfast to start my day off. When I am in a rush and don't have time to sit down,  or eat a bowl of cereal, then I will usually crack open a couple of raw eggs, then add some honey in and drink them as a meal. It's the breakfast that Sylvester Stallone made famous in Rocky, and if it's good enough for "Sly", then it's good enough for me! I also find that I am more alert and awake during at least the first part of my day. After coming home I take a few minutes to relax my mind, then it's off to the road  to log some miles on my Nike's. Before I begin my jog, I will guzzle down some more raw eggs and drink a big glass of water. For the past few weeks this has basically been my routine. However, I try and keep my body guessing as far as times of day I work out, and types of exercises that I do. It seems to be working pretty good because I have been putting on more muscle mass with this routine than the standard m-w-f course . 

Going back to my Conoco story.... I debated on getting : hot Cheetos, Funnions, or Munchos. I know, neither of these choices is any good for you,  but I felt like I deserved a "cheat" snack since I had been doing so good in my diet. After getting to the counter with my Munchos and v8 Berry Blend Juice, the cashier informed me that I needed to purchase at least $5 worth of product to pay with my debit card. Geez...now I have to go back and make m junk pile bigger. So, I get a Reeses Peeses. After getting back into the car, I open my Munchos and share them with Maegan, who has never had any by the way. Way to go Maegan! She immediately asks me if she can have her drink. Munchos, in case you don't know are very salty. I pretty much take care of eating the whole bag  having  the "endless pit"  that I do, and then split the Reeses with Maegan. Afterwards, I felt like poop. So, how many times should you allow yourself to cheat? I don't know? How many times do you want to feel sluggish? Each time I have "cheated", the time in between until the next time I "cheat" has grown. This time I feel like something finally clicked in me. I absolutely cannot allow my body to feel as pathetic as it did after eating that rubbish. In the process of creating more of an austere lifestyle, I am discovering that other areas of my life are excelling as well. When it's a lifestyle, then one doesn't have to try to be healthy and thenbreward their self at the end of the week. You eventually get to a level where you just cannot accept certain kinds of foods into your body anymore. Do you think that putting unleaded fuel in a ferrari is better than super unleaded? I doubt it. It's the same way with our bodies. I would argue that it is the same way with our mentalities in life as well. What good does it do to live in doubt, fear, resentment, jealousy, etc? Various diseases of the mind and body have in fact been connected to the chemical reactions that ensue as a result of these feelings. While it is not the exclusive reason these diseases occur, it remains an important factor in their formation. The body has a perfect balance that allows it to function at optimal level if you mold it right. No one said it was going to be easy. I am a firm believer that medicines intended to create more of a chemical balance in the body and mind, are in fact doing people more harm than good. 

Check out http://www.geocities.com/SouthBeach/Shores/6052/emotions.html and. It's a pretty good article and it will give you a better idea on what role emotions play in your health. For now, I am going to try and figure out how to get my blog in the internet traffic so that more people can read it. If you have any simple ideas for me to achieve this, then let me know! I also want to get connected with people that have sort of the same ideas, or new and expanded ideas on any of the topics I cover. We learn from each other right! Thanks a million for your time today!

a walk in hermann park....5/6/09

Walking around the park I think what is real, and what is a dream? To my left I see a golf green and several trees. The trees, which are mostly pines, stand tall in the air while the sun shines through the leaves and right to my hair. Some people sit in benches, while others walk the gravel track. I come upon a green light post that I feel is fit to lean on. I front of me is a golf green and beyond that a pond and a parking lot. Two guys have just teed off and are on their way to hit their second shot. One is riding around in a golf cart while the other carrying his golf bag on his back.

The game of golf requires total concentration. Your opponent is yourself. Only you can truly beat you. The goal is to get the ball in the hole with the least amount of trees. Maybe the same can be said about life. We all have holes (goals) that we strive to achieve. Some may make in on "par" which is what is expected of them, while others may reach the hole in fewer tries resulting in a birdie or an eagle. In life people achieve what is exactly expected of them, or maybe they make a birdie or an eagle and surprise the nay sayers and maybe themselves. Still yet, a larger group finds themselves arduously trying to reach their goals, and then finally give up. There is a special breed of person who stays out when all the other "golfers" have gone home, still trying to make it in the hole. Others said quit and give in . The strongest of all human spirits says "never shall I give in". I will dream, bleed, and die in agony if I have to, in order to get my ball in the hole. He/she may want to quit, but something inside them does not give. I believe that it is the ancient spirit of those who have taken this journey before us who looked within themselves and faced their "demons". They did not look away and pretend they were not there, or try and go around them. The heroes of past broke through and were set free. They "won" the race. It's easy to give in, and harder to win. The code of the designer lies within us all to be found. Never cease to unlock the deep mysteries that lie within you. Life is a journey and only the beginning to something greater. 

12:24..i just heard a guy yelling on the street.

...But that's not to strange now that I'm living the big city life. Woo-hoo!! Lot's of cool things happen in the city....Police sirens at all times of the night, solicitations to buy household goods at well below wholesale value aka (this guy trying to sell me a paper bag full of coffee cups for a dollar), bumper to bumper traffic from 4-5....make it 6, you get the point. It's not so bad. 

Currently, I am up way past my bed-time and need to go to sleep. I should probably go to sleep now because if I stay up any longer then I am going to have to sleep in late tommorrow and that means less of a productive day. My latest discipline in life has been getting up at the wee hours of the morning when most people are still dreaming, to work out and get a little reading done. I have to tell you, making this change in my life has really enabled me to get a firm hold on the day's challenges. Along with the working out, I have also slowly begun to map out my day's activities on a notepad. How wonderful are the changes that the littlest tweaks bring. Goodnight friends.